Oh dear, here I am all blogs ready and waiting and my mind is a mishy mushy mash of glop, glooping down an otherwise empty corridor of closed doors.
I barely managed the Photo of the week. The prompt for the 100 Word Challenge has been out for days, and though I love the prompt itself, my mind won’t go there. The picture prompt for Flash Friday Fictioneers was just posted and again, my mind won’t go there. The doors remain shut, not a single one of them is even slightly cracked open in invitation. Oh wait, didn’t I have a dream last night? If only I could remember…
I think part of the problem is, I’ve been so concentrated on creating these blogs, finding the right layouts, getting started on each of them, and then going out and reading others blogs, commenting, enjoying, etc., that I’ve left a number of necessary tasks aside, and now they are weighing on my mind like a sinus headache without the pain, just that sense of heaviness and pressure.
Right now I am looking at a stack of envelopes that I set in plain view so I would attend to them. Official stuff, having to do with forms to be filled out, papers to find and copy to send, more forms, more papers, and that’s not even counting the income tax forms that also need doing. (Our due date here is March 15th, not April 15th as in the US.)
Okay, well, I do have a good excuse for why I haven’t started on those piles of paperwork – I’m waiting on yet another pair of glasses, my third pair, which will be for reading and paperwork. That will make three pairs of glasses to juggle, but at least I’ll be able to see clearly. Progressive lenses, you say? Been there, done that, can’t use them, my head tilts too easily, and I have trouble finding the right point of focus, but that’s another story in itself.
Anyway, here I am just rambling. I do that. This blog, in tuit, is not a blog for carefully crafted writing or journalistically beautiful prose on the meaning of life. If that’s what you’re looking for, well, sorry.
Does it mean I don’t have insights about life? Of course not. It’s just that my insights usually come from out of nowhere, I can’t construct them ahead of time, they just have to happen when they happen. Meanwhile, there’s a lot of rambling to get through, because that is what I do when I start writing “just me”. I ramble.
Oh, I can clean it up with the best of them for 100 word challenges or any similar writing exercise, but this isn’t an exercise, it’s my life. And my life is rambling, always has been, always will be. After all, isn’t that the best way to live in the moment? To let the moment take you where it will and experience it first hand without trying to guide your thoughts or control your words.
Go with the flow.
I feel better now. Thanks for reading – if you got this far. 😉
Oh wow, what have I been missing? I picked up my new glasses today – two pair, one for distance, and one for the computer. I can see! I can read! No wonder my eyes got so tired before, I wasn’t seeing clearly at all.
Getting gorceries after with my distance glasses, I could actually read those signs high up alongside the grocery aisles – I could find things again without wandering through the entire store. Everything looked so crisp, so clear. Even colors seem brighter. And now, here at home, I’m sitting at the computer with my computer glasses and can read even small print easily. I honestly didn’t realize how bad my eyes had gotten until now – even digital art has a newer fresher quality to it. I’m really looking forward to having some fun, now.
I added pictures yesterday for the Weekly Photo Challenge on my Round TuiT blog, for any who are interested. (blog links to the upper right). And I finally got the About page done and the theme format finished for my fifth and last blog, Life Adapted, though I’ll probably change the About part as it evolves. At the moment, I’m not even sure what it will become, only that it’s something I have to do. I guess I will learn as I go.
Which is basically true of all of my blogs. While each has a theme, how that theme will find expression will depend on so many different factors. With 5 blogs, I can’t possibly work with them all at once, certainly not every day, but that’s okay. I can just work on the one that inspires me in the moment. Some days it will be the dream journal, especially if I had an interesting dream during the night, other times it will be digital art – and whoa, that alone could be a major project, as I still haven’t found my preferred niche in digital art. Some days I will be inspired by a writing challenge, others I might read something that sends me to my life adapted blog. And days like today, well, I just feel like stopping by and saying hey, I can see!
My life has always been like that, so I guess the blogs are a kind of reflection of that. Each day is new unto itself, and I never know ahead of time what I will feel like doing. I live an unscheduled life, (except for appointments) which can be kind of chaotic at times, but I like it. It’s incredibly freeing to do what you want when you want it. Of course, it helps that the girls are now grown, living their own lives. And of course, there are always little and big interruptions to the flow, you know that “stuff” you can’t avoid, like eating to stay alive, and paying taxes. But aside from all that, I just do what I do when I do it, and it’s a fantastic way to live.
Oh and hey – I can see!!