I haven’t felt this physically tired in a long time. And I get pretty tired anyway, lol, so that’s saying something. I don’t know why, but suddenly my sleep patterns seem disrupted – I used to be able to go to bed and sleep as soon as my head hit the pillow, and slept through til morning. Not so much lately. Instead, I’m finding it harder to get comfortable – even in my giant water-bed that I love. And my mind…
Last night I couldn’t turn it off. It would work through one subject and just when I thought I might drift off, it would switch gears and start thinking about something else. When I finally did get to sleep, I fell into a really weird dream about vampires, of all things (and no I haven’t been watching or reading any vampire tales lately.)
Normally I am not the worrying kind. I just take life as it comes, and truly believe it all works out – and it does. Usually. But lately I’ve been faced with a lot of things I have to “handle” and can’t just sit back and let it slide. Like trying to sell my house, wondering it I’ll be able to find an apartment either to buy or rent. It’s not as easy as one might think. I know the housing market in the US is tough, but it’s just the opposite here, in Switzerland. There is a lack of housing, especially in the area I live, and they can’t build apartments fast enough to sell them. Anything new is reserved a couple of years in advance, while older properties are few and far between.
It should be fairly easy to sell my house, but finding a place to move to will be a challenge. So I spend a lot of time looking online, trying to figure out what my budget will be, how I’m going to afford anything in the region, etc. Then I worry about how I’ll be able to sort through all the stuff we’ve accumulated over the past 15 years in this home, especially since I’m not physically able to do it. And there is just so much STUFF! I think I did a mental inventory of every corner of the house last night, including the basement and storage rooms. Sheesh!
So today, I’m literally knocked out. I feel like I’ve been hit by a truck, my usual pain levels are tripled, and I wanted to spend the day writing but here it is mid afternoon already and I’ve not even looked at this week’s challenges. I guess it will have to wait til next week.
Anyway, if I usually leave notes and likes on your blog, but haven’t been around as much the past 10 days or so, you know why.
Oh, and I did have the first visitor to the house – but now it’s Easter weekend, and everyone takes off, including Realtors, so I won’t even know it they are interested until next week. of course, it would be really rare to get an offer from the first people who came to see it…
I just wish it was done. I’m getting too old for this. My next apartment, if I can find one to buy, will be my last cause I’m not moving again unless it’s into assisted living. It’s just too hard.
At least I should get a good night’s sleep tonight!
I haven’t forgotten you all,